Ranting Si Dahan Rapuh

Disappointed. Sad. Distressed.  But no one's there to fix it.   And no one's there to listen.  In reality, you chose to keep it to yourself.  Left alone to mend your broken heart.  Soon, everything is going to be fine.  Coz tomorrow is a brand new day.  Just leave it all behind.  P/S. This post is not meant to be understood. 

STM - Short Term Memory, a.k.a goldfish memory.  Ini term yang sendiri reka, sendiri label - not diagnosed. In fact, it might differ and contradict with its scientific symptoms and actual condition.  I have selective memory. I can choose what I want to remember. But usualy my brain chooses what it wants to remember, and just forget the rest of it.  I don't remember details of things. Especially those petty small little things, that doesn't really make a difference to me. Or my life.  I have always choose to stay within my comfort zone, having a few groups of friend, avoid risky things.  E.g. Relationships between 2 beings are risky. Especially when it involves your emotions and your future. So, I'll avoid it.  There are times that I remember things, but I chose not to say it. Or I chose not to recall it.  If I were be in midst of saying a sentence, and the being cut-off, there are times when I'll forget what I was saying or what is the phrase that will...

Everyone has their own moody days.  Relationship, friendship, trust; One word - and that's all it takes to ruin it all.  It's said:  "فقل خيرًا أو ليصمت" It's a dilemma. To say it, or not to say it.  But they said, don't keep it to yourself. Don't bottle it up, or else you're just like a time bomb. Ticking, waiting for the time to explode. 💣 The big problem: you don't even know what's the matter. Suddenly all mood just "whoooosh". Gone. Disappear. 💨 And because of that, another delicate heart is being hurt. Because of your actions. Action speaks louder than words.  If you can't even understand your own feeling, how to even share it with another being? And this rant shall continue. Jangan menangis, sayangku Ini hanyalah sementara Berdoalah pada yang Esa Terus menahan sabar Agar bahagia di sana - Ismail Izzani, "Sabar"