Ranting Si Dahan Rapuh

A single word; with lots of hidden meaning to it, filled with emotions & feelings.  A simple expression; yet it covers every aspect of things.  & the rest is left unspoken...

Have you ever wondered if that FRAGILE sticker even have any meaning to it? Are those parcels and packages really being hadled really well, and not treated just like any other boxes ? Do the cargo staff or the courier guy even bother about it?

...and you just wonder what happened, where did you go wrong, and how could you let yourself do such mistakes... Then you can hear the cracking sounds too... Something just broke...

Bila apa yang kita buat, tak selaras dengan apa yang kita cakap.... ...memang dia akan mengelirukan.  Diri sendiri. Dan orang sekeliling. 

Often, we are afraid of the unknown.  The uncertainity of what’s prepared for us.  It may be a pleasant surprise, Or it might just be a total #%!? But one thing for sure, we are taking our own sweet time, enjoying every bits of what we have left so as not to think about what’s in it for us in the future.  And that.....is what we call it as IN DENIAL. 

When you get to meet someone, Who is just like you, Who has the same interest as you, Who dont enjoy shopping yet can spend hours in mall spending on titbits, foodies and junkies, Who loves to spend free time lying on bed, Who truly enjoy sleeping, It’s like you’ve found your other half.  Thank you for the wonderful time together, It’s a perfect agenda for my off day.  Although the day did end pretty rough, We did create another memory though. 

Kadang-kadang mata ni dengki sikit Bila kita boleh tidur, dia taknak Bila dah kena bangun, ngantuk lah pulak Time’s up. 

Self-hatred.  Self-destruct.  When the tongue moves faster than the brain.  When the fingers type faster than a plane.  It’s too deafening.  Life-threatening.  And the idea of having to separate again is definitely not helping. 

Verse #1 Tunggu dengar dahulu Jangan begitu dan berlalu Mungkin kau juga tahu  Cerita dulu tentang hidupku Namun itu ceritaku Sewaktu hati bagai batu Kamu juga pasti ada kisahmu dulu Yang dah lalu biar berlalu Tak perlu paranoid gadis Verse #2 Jangan menilai dulu Jangan terburu, beri waktu Biar ku jadikan mu Satunya ratu dalam hidupku Kerna kini ku tak mahu Menyakiti dan disakiti Kamu juga pasti ada kisahmu dulu Yang dah lalu biar berlalu Tak perlu paranoid gadis These 2 verses of the song, perfectly describe what people who overthinks and insecure feels like.  Sometimes we are too focused on what happened in the past, we failed to see the greatness and privileges you currently have. Something that no other people have earn or own it before. That exclusiveness.  Everyone have their own past.  History is important because that became a reason for you to be stronger now.  But the present is more important because that’s the one who keeps you going and keep staying...

Sometimes we don’t need to say the correct word to express our feelings. Coz the wrong words are actually the correct words to be used in that situation.  Most of the times, we don’t need say the correct words. Just a tight hug, few kisses and some skin to skin touch is enough. Let silence fills the air, express our worries, soothe our insecurities and fix what’s broken in us.  All is well. 

It’s not easy. The feeling that I got when I see you leave,  Then soon be the one leaving , Then being left behind, Then leave again And then being left behind again for the longest time ever But I hope All is Well Coz at the end of this roller coaster period You’ll come back to me.. Am i right ??? . . . . . You will, won’t you?

Home is where your heart belongs.  And when you get to see your loved ones, even from their back, it’s enough.  You don’t need more than that. 

🎶 Saat ku tahu kau akan pergi jauh Izinkan aku untuk selalu menantimu Untuk katakan ku ingin dirimu Agar kau tahu betapa ku terlalu mencintaimu Aku akan menunggu Hingga dirimu kembali untukku Berikan cintamu juga sayangmu Percaya padaku Ku kan menjagamu Hingga akhir waktu menjemputku Ku berikan cinta ku juga sayang ku Percaya padaku Ku kan menjagamu Hingga akhir waktu menjemputku 🎶

🎶 Kau bukan yang pertama Bukan jua kedua Kau hanya yang terkini Terakhir dan selamanya 🎶 - Bukan yang pertama, Faizal tahir.  I know the first three lines is true.  But the last sentence? I’m not so sure.  Curiosity killed a cat.