Ranting Si Dahan Rapuh

Bila kau hanya menunggu sesuatu yg tak kunjung tiba... ...adakah penantian itu suatu yang sia-sia? Memang benar, Penantian itu suatu penyiksaan.  But good things come to those who wait. 

When that one person knows just what you need.  When your mood is down.  When your world just turns around.  When your heart just can’t keep calm.  Reassuarance.  Constant. Persistent.  Thank you, sayang. 

When you feel like scolding every single person in the room, everything just feels like its not happening the way you want it to be and even the smallest things irritate you... All I need is a break. All I need is ...

The key to avoiding disappointment is not to put too much hope, not to care too much.  Only then you get to keep that heart safe in that glass case. 

Maybe it’s just my fault.. For not expressing my own feelings For not spilling out what my heart wants For not sharing my desires For not showing how much you mean to me For not saying how much I love you For not telling you my insecurities For not being sane today.. For acting the way I was...

The car is travelling too fast for your comfort.  You’re being left behind.  So you took a bike to chase it.  Then you asked the car to slow down.  Once you caught up, you travelled in the same speed as the car.  Or at least the car thought so.  Coz suddenly you took a turn and sped off.  Leaving the car behind, clueless. 

Actually it was nothing to be torn about The answer was crystal clear There was not even other option  There was no such thing as making decision Because I know what my heart wants, What my heart will always choose.  It’s only you, sayang.  Please stay with me always. 

A: What I have today is waaaay better than what I’ve ever dreamed about.  Meeting you, Loving you, Holding you close to me, All those are some of the most wonderful things that I’ve never ever pictured myself doing it.  We may have started off wrong, But we’re going to make things right.  We may find things difficult, But we’re going to make it seems easy. Because we have each other.  Always.  P/S I’M EXCITED FOR TODAY

When your heart feels like it’s bursting with emotions, filled to the brim with jumbled up words.  It’s like having a sudden increase in the production of the aqueous humour, but there’s no fluid outflow. Trabecular meshwork dysfunction, blocked. Then it causes an increased in the eye pressure that can leads to glaucoma and other complications.  Is there a need for laser PI? Iridectomy? Is timolol needed to be prescribed?  Or will the IOP keeps on increasing such that it causes lots of internal damage?

If you’re stuck while trying to solve an equation, R estart . Then you’ll find that you’re able to see that problem from another dimension.  If the computer system hangs and refuses to respond, Restart . Then there’s a higher chance that the system will work normally afterwards.  If you find yourself down and stuck in turmoils of emotions, Restart . Unwind yourself and untangle those knots in your heart.  Thank you my dearest, for restarting our countdown timer. It’s refreshing now, although it won’t last for long.  P/S I MISS YOU ALREADY

Red. Anger.  Hurt. War. Rejection. Wrong.  🇯🇵.  Too many emotions. Confusion.  Chaos.  But red is also the colour of LOVE & IMPORTANCE.  You told me to survive this.  To stay strong.  I will.  Because I only want the best for you.  If that’s what you want, that’s what I’ll do.   Be selfish, or so you said.  But to me, being selfish is to follow what your heart wants. Not what I want.  I’m still standing strong. I won’t give up on us.  Have a safe trip back home, sayang.  P/S CAN’T WAIT TO SEE YOU. 

I am afraid if that day were to come.  The day that we are forced to fade. None of us want it to happen.  But circumstances force it to be that way.  Will we succumb to the circumstances? Or will we fight till the very end? Then again, Can we win the fight?

When you’re in no mood to talk about it.  When you’re in no position to talk about it.  Two different meanings.  Yet the outcome is the same.  You don’t like it. You won’t like it.  You just have to accept it. 

Why blame others for your own incapability and limitation?  You probably don’t even deserve the frustrations.  It’s your own fault, isn’t it?

The colour of the gloomy sky this morning, Heavy clouds filled with condensed water vapour, Accompanied by the droplets falling to the ground. That's how grey the feeling is right now. It is not just a normal shirt. The cloth was supposed to hug me while I sleep. The scent was left there to lull me to sleep. Countless night was involved to make the scent stay. Not counting the arguments and fights because of it too. But my stupidity, my carelessness, Just made it all the effort disappear. As though I didn’t treasure it. I am so sorry, sayang. P/S I WANT YOU HERE WITH ME

Today, it’s Monday blues. My said-to-be favourite colour, according to you. Coz i wore lots of pink too.  You used to keep Blue   with you whenever either of us were away. To keep as something to remember me with.  But now it’s left lifeless hanging in my room. Not that it has any life in the first place.  But everytime i wear it, the memory remains. I still feel connected with you, somehow. On the brighter side of things, we have hanky and ice bear now too.  We’re really making memories everywhere, huh?  I know today wasn’t as smooth for you. May tomorrow be a better day for both of us. Stay Strong, Sayang! P/S I MISS YOU Just reminiscing those days we travelled together. I look forward to our next trip. 

The moment we’ve been waiting for is finally here, but it’s not something that we look forward to.  10 nights without seeing you.  I hope this countdown ends REAL SOON.  I’m wearing purple today.  Coz that’s your favourite.  Coz purple is the colour of room.  Coz purple reminds me of our time together. Coz  Purple  is lying on your bed at this moment.  But all I want is to lie down with you.  For now I’ll wait till that day arrives.  Enjoy your trip, sayang.  P/S  I LOVE YOU