I'm Back

I'm back to blogging, for how long this time? I don't know.

Harry Potter series might be over, I'm still not over Ron & Hermione (in case you still haven't figure who are the 2 people on the right). I just - I would say - like them. It took them 7 book to finally kiss (I don't bother to count the number of pages, but some die-hard fan did).

The main reason I'm back is. I need a place to express my feeling. I don't want to do it on facebook, because too many people can read it if I were to post it there.

Over here, I don't even know who's going to read these stupid rants anyway. There were only a few who used to read it, but today, after a long period of being M.I.A, people might have forgotten of its existence. Well, at least I did.

Truthfully, I'm under pressure. No joke.

Nevertheless, I always manage to cover up those 'unhappiness', 'glum' or whatever you call it by being cheerful, making stupid jokes, being lame etc.

If you think that I'm actually feeling happy in the inside, tell you what, I'm not. Yeah, sadly.

See, I can't even say it here what's the whole fiasco that has made - or making - my life so miserable.

My solution? Easy.

1. Create your own world. Where you won't have to face this problem, where problems - even if they exist - can easily be solved. In other words, create your own 'drama', soap opera, or whatever you call it, but keep the storyline to yourself. You wouldn't want to worry or bother people about something that only exist in your imagination, would you?
2. Avoid the source of the problem - for example: you're not happy with a certain person, be it with something that he/she did or just anything, avoid talking to him/her. Let me tell you, it might not be the best idea, but at least you're not hurt. Confronting - at a certain point, it works. But most probably you'll just end up being hurt - again.
3. Stop thinking of the problem - maybe everything will resolve on its own? This is me trying to be 'optimistic'. Trust me, this actually doesn't work. In fact the problem just became worse.
4. Try talking to someone about the problem. Hell yeah, tried it. It's super embarrassing when you breakdown just right there, while trying to share it with someone.
5. Spend time doing something that might make you forget - temporarily - that such problem exists. E.g. meet up with friends, spend your time in front of the computer (surf the web, play games, watch movies, read manga, listen to songs or just simply stare at it)

I might seem to be strong on the outside, but on the inside only Allah knows.